company.

she judges me, and talks bad about me
but we're so close
atleast it looks that way.
she occupies herself, to keep company
but they all leave and live their own lives
she sits in dark places and wonder where her happiness has gone.
rain smacks against the windshield in my car
music low, i don't feel like hearing the radio
and she thinks to me, is this how it is supposed to be?

she might as well not have a phone
she's always reaching out to the world
but it doesn't answer.
on days like this, it doesn't exist.
in a relationship with herself
and its not anyones fault but her own..
the biggest critic, and for her to think
she wants success.
more convenient for themselves,
she is left with busy keeping and
doing things that benefit her none
mirrors fogged, don't look at yourself
keep her locked in a box
until im gone.

tears fled, like rain
swerving into the wrong lanes
this is where she left you,
don't do it to me.
"friends" flee from behind the curtain
and she knows its all an act
"i hope they never come back"
but they all come and go as they please
confusion in me,
like him, he did this
i had no one then, and i have me now
but im not sure that makes her proud.

if you're leaving stay gone
if your staying, then stay
but if you aren't yet sure
i have no time for you.
webisites, social networks
they keep her plenty company
but when she leaves the screen
her phone still doesn't ring
shes alone, in the room
being consumed
and he's lost towers
as she shits on her own throne.
music, turn it loud
pain? wash it out
cleanse herself
keeping herself company
she needs company
shes scared of who she wants to be
lost in the lulluby of her childhood memories
he fled, just like daddy
and just like daddy he doesn't respond
counciling only sugar coast everything
and nothing comes of this.
left with a pretend goodnight kiss
daddy and the world loves you
but you need to love thyself.