"They say you can't fly unless you let yourself fall,so i was expecting to take flight soon,I've let myself fall the simplest things, i could feel myself fall everyday."
I lived in a house of strangers, but ironically i called it home. I had a few friends that i considered "real" and the rest of them i lost along the way, but i was stronger now, stronger than i was when i lost my friend in 2008, stronger than when i found out my ex cheated on me, or when i realized my dad didn't love me, or even when i seen my old "best friend" say the worst things someone has every said about me. All of those things were in my past, i didn't let them control me, or break me.. they just made me who i have became; but who was that? My whole life chasing my own dreams seemed to get boring after i talked out loud about them, i tried out school, and i didn't care for it much. The only thing i did like to do is talk, and really that's what I was known for. i was always the friend that told the other one what to say back to her boyfriend who was about to break up with her, or the one telling someone what they need to do to live right, but what did i have to show for me? I knew I'd show them something, but not many people wanted to stick around long enough for me to find it myself. Eventually all the ones who i initially wanted to prove myself to ended up being the motivation to get there quicker.
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